all is well

Why is it that I can’t take just a few moments to write a few thoughts down and most importantly, keep you up to date with the munchkins. ??

I really enjoy writing once I start to do so….so here I am and I will try my best to get up to date. I have to say though, there hasn’t been a whole lot going on at the Hash House. Johnathon is busy working the Pickering A Outage, well at least when he is able to stay longer hours or go in on weekends. My windfall (ahem!) of being forced onto shift is really starting to take its toll in a few ways. First being its effect on the boys. Shane, of course, doesn’t ‘say’ much and right now, I am very thankful for that because our Nicholas certainly makes up for it and he has plenty to say about my work schedule. Let me tell you, he is not pleased about it at all. In fact, some nights when I am ready to leave, he is crying away and giving me the biggest squeezes and many, many smooches and I am left with the heaviest of hearts. Leaving is the hardest thing to do….and I have often turned into a teary mess myself as I am driving to work. And it is not just the nights, it is the 12 hour days when I’m working. Thankfully, I am still able to get up with them in the mornings and spend some time with them getting ready for the day. But even then, Nicholas will question why I have to work such long days and why I won’t be there to tuck him in (unless it’s the weekend and then we allow him to stay up later). One morning, he even asked when will I stop working again? He is referring to when I was on mat leave.

I’m not painting a very good picture here, am I? In fact, I am feeling like quite the rotten mother at this moment.

Okay, okay….reality check. This is life and right now I/we have been given this challenge. We are doing our best to deal with it. Johnathon has been fortunate enough to work my schedule into his own at work and although, he is in an Outage and really should be at work more than he is, he has been able to be here, there, everywhere he needs to be. And he is wonderful about it....even when I am in full force crank mode! It’s not always perfect but it’s what we are faced with right now.

I am feverishly trying to find another position within OPG. One that will bring ‘normalcy’ back into our home. One with working much less hours that will allow me to spend time with my boys each and every day…..all three of them. One that will not only make my family happier but make Mommy happier as well.

I did interview this past Monday for a new position with Human Resources that I would really love to become a part of. Problem is that it is for a rotation which means that it is a ‘temporary’ position up to one year. I would take it in a heartbeat though. What the problem may be is that my management does not have to release me for such positions. And with our VBO coming up in April, I would be thoroughly shocked if I were released. Of course, this means I would have to be offered the position first. I shouldn’t get so ahead of myself. So, we shall see what happens. My manager did wish me luck though so hopefully that is a glimmer of hope.

There have been plenty of other postings lately too that I have applied for so let’s all cross our fingers that one of them will be mine and I can kiss this shi(f)t thing BUH BYE!! Now, that being said….in a perfect world, I will stay on shift until we get back from our vacation in Mexico. That week is a ‘free’ week off that comes as a ‘bonus’ so to speak for working shift and I won’t have to use any of my vacation! Asking too much??? Okay, maybe….but one can hope.

Shall we move on??? Yes, let’s……but that will be next my post.