first day blues

So, yesterday was my first day back at work...leaving the kiddies....facing the music! And it was AWFUL! The anticipation has been pretty intense leading up to the big day but I never realized quite how sad I would actually be. After 13+ months though, it was time.

3 am, Nicholas wakes up with a bad dream. Daddy goes in to soothe him back to sleep and that was it, I was up for the day. Tossed and turned but nope, not one more wink. Lovely. Woke up the kiddies before 6, Sydney as well since she was going to Catherine's for the day. Shane, as always, put on his biggest grin and well, Nicholas, was not so easy to coax out of bed. That is going to be a continual challenge! And impressively, Sydney was up and showered and ready to go for 6 am!!

For the next month at least, Auntie Cheryl, will be watching the boys. Thank goodness....I think we all know how our nanny, Tasha, was denied a visa and we have since been looking into quality daycare. Not easy in our small town but I'm on it!

I can't remember when the tears started (I know...a whole lot of boo-hooing)....but they sure didn't go away for the better part of the day. I actually had to leave a pre-job meeting first thing so I could go and compose myself. Man...it was a ROUGH day!!

But apparently, only a rough day for Mommy. After work, I drove over to Auntie Cheryl's...walked in the door and our little Shane-man was all BIG smiles to see Mommy which lifted my spirits totally....but no, not Nicholas. He took one look at me and started wailing...I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home!! Ya, not exactly the greeting I was hoping for....lol.....especially with him telling me how much he doesn't want me to go back to work the past few days. And then he proceeded to tell me that he didn't miss me. Boo-hoo. So, getting into the truck I told him that even though he didn't miss me, I missed him very, very much. He says.....I was having so much fun, I didn't have time to think about you Mommy. Bless his heart.

So, here we are....day two....and it's a MUCH better day! Yay! And funny enough, if all of my vacation is approved, I will be off as of 330 this afternoon until August 12th!! It's a rough life ;o)